*sob

i'm numb...i can't feel anything right about now..even if i were to be knocked down by an 18-wheeler, i doubt i'll even feel a thing...
i feel like my entire body is being ripped apart but i can't feel the pain...i'm desperate to feel the pain....
i.need.pain.NOW.
if only i could just cut myself like before...admire the blood flowing down my arm...the feeling is enticing...it's almost intoxicating...
my MENG2 presentation is tomorrow and i've yet to start...i can't concentrate at all...i don't feel like doing anything at all...all i want to do is to pop some pills and throw myself out of the window...