a revelation i craved

today, i realized tat no matter how many friends u haf.
tat 1 presence makes a huge difference.

i missed armyboy immensely.
didnt expect myself to realli rely on tat 1 person to make my day complete.
eversince mrX, i nvr realli tot i am capable of needing tat particular sum1, badly.

it all started wit jus a harmless invitation to lunch.
nvr did it cross my mind we(i) cud actualli be here rite now.
simpleshort&ingreen dude standing at the entrance of ys mrt lookin out for a glimpse of me.
im not exaggerating here ok.
ask him! hehe~

simple macd lunch & a lil walk ard northpoint ended wit us in starbucks, sharing a caramel frap.
he was adamant to break my lil fingers.
sicko! lolx
tat follows by a series of droppinbyvideoezytosayhellobeforeheadinghomefromwork trips.
after work macd treats were much welcome .
imagine mounthwateringmeltedcheeseburger+truckload of humour&laughter.
it was pure bliss.
had a couple of sembawangtoyishun walkmehome.
chilled out at sembawang park.
we talked&talked&talked.
secretsout misty eyed, i found solace in him.

months later he pop e ques.
on my special day.
since den i nvr turned back.
mayb once but since den, ders been none.

i nvr did understand e meanin of LOVE.
to me it was all about adapting to another. &vice versa.
its abt being fair to one another.
setting unwritten rules for the other to follow.
expecting every single effort put in to be doubled by e other.

den tings change.
i no longer feel tat way.
armyboy gaf me a whole new view of loving sum1.
its abt making sum1 happy.
¬ expecting aniting in return.
to trust wholeheartedly not make assumptions.
respecting each other's privacy.
¬ be insanely jealous abt stupid things.
take things as it is.
go wit e flow.

now i am a firm believer.
i believe tat for every brokenheart, der'll be sum1 who's willing/able to fix it.
&for every empty soul, der'll be sum1 to fill e space.

oh!dearsis finally found her shining knight in armour.
yes.
she's getting married.
:)))
am happy for her.

so yea.
a long post i mus say.

&armyboy, do noe tt i love u to bits.
u may not be perfect but ure perfect for me.



mrX, thank u for e times we shared. now tt we've both found our other halfs. its time for me to say goodbye. our relation ends here. we're not friends. but 2 pple who happen to haf met at e crossroad.

//reborn from e ashes

4days n counting..

yes.
armyboy's in camp.
4days haf past n boy do i haf issues to settle.
dinner @timbre wit fiza & raj was great.
e food's gd, awesome ambiance.

can't wait to take armyboy there.
hehehe

goin to e movies wit msnadiah.
n dinner's @pizzahut wit e Asses.

tats it then.


//come on home now n smooth the creases.

lifeline..

i have it all planned out.
yeah!
i really want to head somewhere in life.
to achieve something & be somebody.

ive submitted my request to enrol in SP's Specialist Diploma in Marine Engineering and Naval Architecture (SMENA).
hopefully i could get in.

&le boss gave me a new designation: designer draftswoman
cos he said draftperson aint chick enuff!!
oh yeah!
he's a great boss!!

so i have my life planned out for now.
hopefully things will turn out fine.



//without u, im barely breathing

right on, mate

i just realised.
u just don't fit be a friend of mine.
should have known.

what was i thinking.
damn~
all those words u said.
about wanting us to be friends yadah.... yadah.... yadah....
not much of a suprised really~

begone now.
& never come back~

i don't need u & neither do u.


//it's good to know u're alive.