WHeRe aRe u??

been waiting since e day u left...
where r u??..i missed u so much...

BoReDoM *SoB SoB*

hey...im back..
im bored..i haf absolutely nuthing 2 do...
B's out of town 4 e nxt 3 days or so...
haiz..
still haven got my pay yet..
im broke...my ez-link haf a negative value...
my hair nid trimming...n e drawers at werk nid "filling in"..
in tis case wit food!!!arghh!!!im so broke!!!
my prepaid's low...argh argh argh!!!
i wanna catch a movie...i wanna go shopping...
damnit!!!!!!

i WiLL SuRViVe!!!

arghh!!!its only 1.20pm..
n ders nothing 2 do...
besides doing 2 laundary, cleaning e house, bathing, sleeping...
i haf absolutely nothing 2 do rite now...
oh~i almost forgot...ehhehe hows my new layout?
nice??e girl is absolutely a BABE isnt she??
hahhaa...how r u peepz?
i apologize 4 not blogging these few weeks..
been 2 bz...i jus started my attachment at Keppel Singmarine 2 weeks back!!
ahhha!!life is hell!!!hahha not realli arhh..
tis time round (thankfully!!)ders other attachees besides me n Razia..
n ders...ehem~ 2 Abgs 2 ogle at...hahha
*mcm siak satu matair org lagik satu laki org*
hahahhahha sorry B...hehehe
besides tat..e ppl der r so FRIENDLY...unlike those muthafuckas back at ASE...
sheeeshh!!!beginning 2 miss my Friends...aAaAuUuUWwWw...korang aper macam??baik??
niway...Harry Potter's back!!!yessah!!!
i wan 2 watch...anione interesed in joining me???
oh yah!!!Art's Festival is about 2 begin...anione wana join me??
hahaha so many things 2 do but so lil' time..
arghh!!!how i wish e day is made up of more den 24hrs...*onli 4 e month of June*
okay guys..i got 2 go..will update regularly from now on..
muacks!!!miss u guys!!

iRGi FaHReZi....WoOoOoOo.....

jus finished watching Sephia..
woOoOoOoO!!!oh ya...e Ricki guy i was talking abt..
he's a character played by Irgi Fahrezi in e Indo drama Sephia..
& oh!!he's HOT!!hahaha suprise2...
he's indonesian..but he's HOT!!super HOT...hahha
damnit...i'm in cloud 9...haha
Irgi aku cinta padamu!!!
hahahha ok enuf of Irgi..
ermm...i tink i got 2 go..
my mommy's sick..hehhe tata~

PS: Irgi Fahrezi is HOT!!!!!!!

My WeDDiNG???

ellu...
hehehe at last...i finally haf e time 2 blog...
its been a hectic week 4 me...
yeap..started on my attachment alreadi...
its been a fun so far...
made lots of new friends...
hehehe most of dem are so friendly..
i feel so comfortable..ehhehhe yessah!!!
didnt go 2 work nror tuition 2day...
i was shagged...actualli mom tot of goin 2 johor..
but she cancelled e plan..n aniway i wasnt feeling tat well...
haiz...i miss him..hah~
hey..u noe wat..ders a malay wedding jus beside my blk...
n rite about now..e groom is belting out a love ballad 2 his bride..
sheeshhh!!!im ssoooooooo jealous!!!who wudnt b rite??
i wud love 2 haf tat someone 2 do e same...
i cud almost hear him say "rite!!fat chance Lyn!!!"
hhahha nvm...haiz...im 19..n b4 long its about time i get married...
woOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoO.......
i feel old~ goddamnit...ermm since ders a wedding nearby..
no harm in me planning mine rite??...
ermmm lets c...i tink i wanna get married between e age of 25-27..
i wanna make it a grand affair..but no hotels pls...too BORING...
i wan space...lotsa space..definitely no karaoke-ing...
i cant stand those people whu tinks dey r Ziana Zain or Siti Nurhaliza...
sheeshh get a LIFE!!!ahh...cant wait 2 get married...
ehehhe den i wun b sleeping, eating, watching tv, bathing alone...
ermmm...forget e bathing part..hahha...
i wonder how it feels like..being a Mrs 4 e rest of my life..
errmmm....ohh...i wanna have kids...lot of dem...hahha
i love kids...especially if dey r mine...hahaa...
hey!!!nid 2 go..wanna watch Sephia...
ricki is HOT!!!

iM WaiTiNG...

Lovehunters : Ku Tetap Menanti

Mengapa kau pergi dariku
Di saat ku mengharap kasihmu
Kemesraan hanya bayangan
Belaianmu hanya kenangan

Sentuhanmu menjadi ingatan
Kan ku pendam dilubuk yang dalam
Nuranimu tetap padaku
Walau apa kubawa bersama

1
Inikah dikata cinta
Kau pergi tanpa berita
Pengertian tiada bererti
Kuharapkan kau kembali

Biar musim silih berganti
Cintaku tetap bersemi
Walau apapun yang terjadi
Akan ku tetap menanti oh... oh...

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Biar musim silih berganti
Cintaku tetap bersemi
Biar musim silih berganti
Akan ku tetap menanti

Last Day of Pure Freedom...

ellu..
sheeshh..im left wit ard 10 mins more of my freedom..
uhuh~ will be starting my 12week of attachment..
arghh!!!!goddamnit!!!
lazy sia...but nvm..at least im getting paid 4 all tis shit...
haiz...goin 2 mit Raz at 6.45am at boonlay interchange tomoro..
sheshh
6.45am!!!wat e Fuck!!!!
oh well..haf 2 b punctual...don wan 2 show a bad impression..
hope i can get up..ehe since im awake now..hahah
okay den..gotta go..chiao!!!

Mommy's Day...

Happy Mothers' Day 2 all Current Mothers & Mothers 2 b...
ahh...e beauty of motherhood..hehehe
2moro...im staying home...
gonna clean e house from top 2 bottom...
mayb i shud try cooking dinner??
ermm...not sure myself...
lets jus see wat happens 2moro..
haiz...mothers are truly angesl in disguise...
dey clean after us...cook 4 us...wash our clothes etc etc..
n dey nvr complain...ok..not inclusive of e usually naggings...
how does it feel like covered in grim & grease slogging in e kitchen??
well 2moro im gonna "feel" like a mother 4 a day..
i wan 2 do all e chores tat my mom been doing 4 e last 32yrs of her life...
den mayb...i will appreciate her a lil more den i used 2..
hope my plan's a success..
wish me luck...

Favourite Song 4 Now..

No Doubt : In My Head

I tried to think about rainbows
When it gets bad
You got to think about something
To keep from going mad
I tried to think about big fat roses
When the ship starts going down
But my head is wicked jealous
Don't want to talk about it right now

Chorus:
Long distance
Don't talk about ex-girlfriends
Don't talk about you with out me
Don't talk about your past

In my head
It's only in my head
In my head
It's only in my head

There's just something about you
That gets me in a twist
And sometimes i think
That cupid is just taking a piss
It only takes one word or idea
To send me in real deep
So if you think you're clever
Use the right words when you talk to me

In my head
It's only in my head
In my head
It's only in my head

I really think i have a problem
I really can't control myself
Why do i get so suspicious?
Do you want someone else?

Cause everybody wants everybody else
Everybody wants everybody else
Everybody wants everybody else

Only in my head...
It's only my head

In my head
It's only in my head
In my head
It's only in my head

Lets talk about the future
Lets talk about the wedding
Lets talk about gwen stefani
Let's talk about how much you like me
And all that

In my head
It's only in my head
In my head
It's only in my head

Too NiCe?

hey..exams are finally over..
yeay!!wen 2 catch a movie wit B..
Van Heilsing...n wow!!
Hugh Jackman is super-HOT!!
ermm...i dun get it..
y must one get even wit another??
ok u dun get it now do u??
okay...let say...
ur Q-ing 2 board a bus...
n sum stranger jus happen 2 be rude enuf n tat pissed u off...
n u decided 2 get even wit him..by being rude back...
yeap..typical scenario to u...
nothing new...but..
wat i dun get it is..y?..must u get even back??
sum1 told me we shudnt gif "face" 2 tis kind of ppl..
ermm...fair enuf...noone haf e rite 2 push u ard..
tat i haf 2 agree...but y must we get even back??
its as gd as being dem...isnt it?..
y do things we dun like others 2 do on urselves..
y cant we jus speak up instead of repeating wat dey did...
right??logic enuff?..2 me its jus plain ego...
u dun wan 2 "lose" face 2 dem by keeping quiet...
yea i noe..actions speak louder den words..
but still tink...if everi single human on tis Mother Earth were 2 do tat..
wen will der b peace??war will b raging in everi nook & cranny on tis planet...
ok..mayb u haf been tolerating it 4 2 long...n its getting overboard...
but still...tink...even if u bombard dem..will e ting end?..
most prolly dey will jus continue making u piss...sheeeshh...
its stupid..trust me it is...
take 4 instant e Israeli-Palestian killings...
look at how many lives were taken...n we r talking abt innocent lives...
instead of speaking up 4 their rights...dey decide 2 get even..
its like a game 2 dem..."U kill...I kill"
sheeshhh...n e worse ting is...e ones ended up dead isnt e culprits demselves...
wat e??haiz...see how terrible e world has become?..
im disgusted jus looking at e way these human potray demselves...
dey r worse den animals...i hate dem...
whether u r a christian, a muslim, hindu, free-tinker...
religion do not gif u e rite 2 kill another being...
especially if he/she is innocent...
haiz...if onli i haf e power 2 stop all these bullshits!..
arghh nvm...let us all pray 4 e safety of all our Muslim bros & sistas all over e world...
n hope all these will end soon...
hope u ppl whu love 2 get even wit others 2 tink abt wat i say...

a BeauTiFuL SoNG...

below is a beautiful song by Human Nature...
its an old song...but it never fail 2 cheer me up...
wen im down n out...i lurve 2 play e song...
i feel coaxed...feel sumhow glad...
glad tt sum1 dedicate it 2 me..okok not actualli dedicate...
more 2 like self dedication..hahha
but seriously..u shud listen 2 e song...
n if possible...pass it ard..
wen u noe sum1 is feeling down....
dedicate it 2 dem...
im sure dey will feel much betta...
i tried once...but e outcome wasnt wat i expected arh..
hehehe she cried even more..aiyahh..
but its betta 2 try ait?...
nonetheless 2 all e people whos feeling down n out..
i dedicate tis song specially 2 u...
*hugs*

2 MySeLF n 2 aLL

Human Nature : Every Time You Cry

Never before have I seen you look so blue
Can't find a cure and nothing comforts you
The light at the end of the tunnel
Doesn't shine at the end of the day

CHORUS
Every time you cry
Save up all your tears
I will be your rainbow, when they disappear
Wash away the pain
'til you smile again
I will be the laughter in your eyes
Every time you cry

Time has a way of wounding what has healed
What can I say, I know just how you feel
Your soul is dark and troubled
Like a river running wild
CHORUS

Well you know that's what I'm here for
And I will give you when you need more
There'll be no hesitation
I will reap no reward
CHORUS

e ReaSoN(s) y i BLoG...

well actualli i dun noe realli y i blog..
i got 2 noe bout blogging wen Raz told me about Nut's blog..
den it suddenly hit me..
an online journal...ermm sounds FUN?..
so..i decided 2 haf my very own blog..
was very excited at 1st..
i wud made drafts of my entries b4 actualli posting it...
dumb..i noe..oh well..
as i get more pro in blogging..
i thot 2 myself...y did i even start my own blog?..
well...ive come up wit a few...
(1) i wanted 2 b "in"...
(2) i wanna get noticed
(3) nid a past-time..a hobby..
but most importantly...
(4) i nid a "place"...2 vent my anger...pour out my sorrows...n display my joy..
n hey presto...im a blogger...
im not doing tis coz i wan 2 gain sympathy or fame...
ermmm..minus e fame...i jus wan a medium 4 me 2 connect 2 e world...
assuring myself tat im not alone...im not showing offla...realli im not..
everiting i said in my posts are all reality stuffs..haiz...
as time goes by i dun realli noe wat 2 post animore..
sheessh...oh well..i will try my very best 2 update it as often as i cud..
nxt week is e start of my attachment at Keppel SingMarine...
hope gd things will happen...so i can enter it in my posts..hehhe
4 now...i shall take my leave..
but ill be BACK...
as-ta-la-bis-ta baby!!!

20 Questions..

i haf so many questions..
yet i haf no answers...
n i dunnoe if i wan 2 noe e answers....

HaD eNuFF WiT MuSHy STuFFs....

i don feel gd...
im depressed, worried, dissappointed, tired all at one time...
arghh!!!damnit!!!
i tot im gonna do okay...
e 1st 2 papers wen good 4 me...
n e last one jus haf 2 be screwed up!!!
damnit!!damnit!!i cant afford 2 fail...
noooooo....
jus wen things are bad...
it got worse...
sum1 canceled our Plan...
haiz..oh well...
nvm...thank God i haf a blog..
at least i haf a place 2 let off my steam...

iNNeR CHiLD??HmMmMmM....

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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QuiZZeS

A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.



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What kind of girl are you?
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PASSIONATE LOVER. You love to love, always looking
for a relationship. You cannot live without it.
Your lover must be passionate and you want
that you and your partner melt into each other.
He/She should not try to take the domination .
You dont want a relationship without passion,
and the sexuality plays a big part. The first
moment you meet him/her is one of the most
important. There has to be something between
you , you cannot explain. From the first moment
on everything must fix. But when this passion
disappears you disappear to. For you it is
better to leave than to see your love
restrained.


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DooMeD..

i seriously haf 2 blog..
im dead...im so dead...
wen 4 my Safety Management paper @ 2 2day..
wen i flip thru e paper..
i noticed sumthing...
remembered!!!
i remembered tat most of e questions i haf studied b4..
yeay!!!but!!!
ders a big BUT!!!
i cant seem 2 force e anwers outta my head...
sheesshh!!!i sat der...jus staring at e blank paper..
thinking wat 2 write...
how???i am so gonna fail e paper...
i only manage 2 complete 2 question..
n tat onli mount 2 25% of e paper..
arghh!!!!how???
i nid 2 at least 50% 2 pass safety management...
ngoh is so gonna kill me!!
arghh!!!STRESS!!!
cam maner ni.....asyik fail je...biler mau game sehh...
im already not going 2 3rd yr...damnit!!!arghh!!!
i nid food!!!lotsa food 2 calm my nerves down...

a GReaT DaY..

another great day 4 me...
alhamdulillah~ things are finally turning out betta these days...
im thankful 2 God..4 all e happiness ive received...
e blessings n 4 giving me Life...
i nvr knew Life is beautiful...
i used 2 hate living..i hated my mom 4 e naggings...
hated my dad 4 e beatings..
hated my sis 4 being e apple in my parents' eyes...
hated e pple ard me...teachers..classmates...i hated everithing...
negativity had always been a part of me...
i used 2 take things 4 granted...
i was so naive back den...
4 every bad episode tat happened..
i point e finger at others...
blaming dem 4 e misfortunes...
haiz...
it took me...17yrs...17 bloody yrs...
2 realised e beauty tat surrounds me..
i wasted 17yrs...instead of being thankful for being alive..
i was consumed by anger n hatred...
now im different...
im changing from an ugly midget into a beautiful firefly...
i wan 2 spread my light of happiness far n wide...
n tis is all because of U...
B..e day u came into my life...
i began 2 see things from a different view...
u lifted me out of e deep black hole...
e gaf me strength 2 face my fears....
in e past...we haf 2 go thru daily conflicts..
misunderstandings n lots of voice-raising...
2 get 2 where we are today...
im so thankful tat thru out e rough patch..
i haf my friends 2 count on to...u noe hu u r...
i lurve u guys...thank u 4 everithing...
e hang outs...e talks...e hugs...
i can nvr repay dem...
2 Mak...Bapak..Kakak...
even though u 3 wun be able 2 read tis...
i wud jus like 2 express my gratitude 2 u 3...
im sorry 4 all e bad things ive done...
sorry 4 all e tears u shed...e worries...
im sorry...i realise e value of family...
how deep e love runs in my veins..
even though we dun express dem...
2 all whus reading...
value ur love ones...especially ur family...
b4 u lose dem 4 eternity...
show dem ur care n concern...most importantly respect...
im saying tis 2 show tat im a perfect filial daughter...
im not perfect..noone will ever b...
but im trying...

Bestfriend?

do u happen 2 haf a bestfriend??
if u do..i suggest u not 2 continue reading...
ehhehe..yaLa..dun wan 2 offend anione...
:) if u dun mind..carry on reading...hehhehe

Bestfriends...ermm...
who are dey??
friends who haf been der 4 u..
thru ups n downs...
always hang out together..
share e most darkest secrets 2gether..
ermm..if tats e definition of Bestfriends...
den i tink i got lots of dem...
my friends been der 4 me wen i nid dem e most...
n i can always count on dem if i haf a prob...
even if not always...i appreciate wat dey haf done 4 me..
so wat exactly is a Bestfriend?
sumtimes i envy those people who haf one...
sum of e people i noe..haf more den 1..
wow!!damn...im green wit envy...
i nvr had 1...
oh wait..well...even if i treat e other person a bestfriend..
she/he doesnt seem 2 do e same...
haiz..once i had a "bestfriend" in pri sch..
we got 2 noe each other in pri1 1st day of sch...
we happen 2 live in e same blk..so we took e same sch bus 2 sch..
at 1st ackward arh...but after sumtime...
i spend most of my weekend afternoons der...
n i tot 2 myself...wow!i haf a bestfriend...
it wen on 4 a few mths...
we were so close...even during recess time we wan 2 eat 2gether..
wit our "buddies" in tow..hehehhe... so much fun...we nvr arguement...
den one unfortunate day...wen my sister came 2 fetch me from sch...
she told me wat she overheard wat my "bestfriend" said 2 her mom...
"Mama...si Zalina 2 mulu dia bising seh...dia blah blah blah"...
sheeshhh!!!wat e hell...i tot she was my "bestfriend"...
kepantat btol...*sorry Nut pinjam jap ehh*
but e funni thing is..e next she acted as if nothing happen..
sheeshh...wat e hell..
tat was my 1st experience of mistakenly tot i haf a "bestfriend"...
e 2nd happen in sec sch...
sec1..wow...im was like..wow..
hehehe da besarla konon...
khrekhkre...i look ard my new classrm..
wow..hehhe okok...
at 1st okay...i made alot of frens...both guys n gerls...
den i becam really attached a grp of gerls...
attached in a healthy wayla...im still sane..
we hang out together...su m of us haf e same CCA...
n 1 happen 2 be my sister's bestfriend lil sister...
but most of all..i was real close 2 one particular gerl...
we were like sisters...i hang out at her place so often...
i practically noe her whole family..
treated hers like mine...i was so happy..
in my frens diary...*remember e BIODATAs-written diarys...
yeap..i even wrote her as my bestfriend...
wow!!...den sec2 came...
she became a prefect..n i dun...
so we stop hanging out tat often...
den she got 2 noe another gerl...n dey are like close...
i was like..okay...a bit sad arh...coz i dun haf her all 2 myself..
*once again...im not gay or anithing....*
i tot e three of us will be great together..
hang out 2gether n stuffs...wow..another bestfriend...
we bought e same design tshirts...yes all 3 of us..wahhah
wen out 2gether...den i realised...
everytime e three of us g out 2gether...
i always ended up at e back...both of dem will be laughing 2gether in front..
while i tag along...keeping 2 myself...
den...lil by lil...we grew apart...
i wept...wept e lost of a gd friend....
i was so sad...i tot i haf tat 1 fren...a Bestfriend...
but i was wrong...even though we still talk n stuffs..
its jus friends..jus normal friends...
haiz...since den i dun haf ani bestfriends...
i try not to...now i treat all my friends equally...
dey are all my friends..it doesnt realli matter...
coz i love each n everyone of dem...
tak kirala...bdk pri ke, sec ke poly ker..
:) i lurve u guys..n im thankful to haf u guys in my life...
thank u....muacks...
cheers 2 Friendship!!!

HaPPy uR HeRe...

ellu...
still awake...waiting 4 my mum n sis..
hehhe wats up..
its been a long week...
haiz...cant wait 2 end all my exams...
im so tired...
made sum progress 2day...
im done wit safety notes...
jus haf 2 analyse dems everyday..
jus 2 make sure i get all of dem in my head...
decided 2 jus cap my studying 2 jus 55% of e whole paper..
haiz...im not tat gd in memorising..
so i guess..if i can at least pass e paper..
its gd enuf..
4 me at least...
errmmm wat can i say...
met B 2day..
yes..again..hahha
how great...
been meeting him almost everyday..
ehhehhe so happy...
:) miss e rest...
amcam korang???how ur studying coming along?
haiz...so so happy...
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

i LuRVe u STiLL...

yawnz..
had a great day 2day..
wen 4 for NA exam in e morning...
met Isa along e way...
alhamdulillah~..manage 2 answer most of e question..
hopefully i pass...
meet my B in e afternoon..
accompanied B 2 SIR building 2 extend his passport...
den we wen 2 Concourse Shopping Mall...
2 study at BK...e place was deserted...sheeshh
but fun!!miss e gd ol' days wit e St. Johnians...
ermmm...i feel so happy...
ive been meeting B almost everyday...
haiz...i can nvr be happier den now...
wish we cud do tis all e time...
jus walking hand in hand..
laughing n joking...
tucking all our problems at e back of our heads..
ahhh....i feel so ALIVE....
rejuvenated sumhow...jus having u next 2 me...
jus looking at ur angelic face...
waaaaaiiit a min....
ANGELIC??errr...nvm...
i jus love u...love u so much...
:) n im glad..we haf finally cleared e bad air..
let hope we will b able 2 handle situations like these better...
if ders a nid..hopefully not....
i cant bear 2 argue wit u again...
muaiicckkss..lurve u B...

BLooD SHoT eYeS...

yawnz...
haven sleep 4 more den 24hrs..
sheeshh...
my body aches...
my eyes hurt...
but i jus refuses 2 sleep..
i wan 2 test how far i can withstand tis tiredness..
i donnoe if i wan 2 go tuition 2moro...
so tired..im a total shag...
clinically i tink my brain's dead...
hahahaha...
shhhessshh..
i badly nid 2 sleep....
i tink...
argghh!!!