why i can't fall for a pantat

don't ask me why i putting this up...
just something i would like to share with you guys..
by the way pantat in this term is not referring to my/yours/anybody's ass..
just a reminder...

okay the main reason why i can't fall for a pantat is because
a. he is my close friend/my friend's boyfriend/just not my type..
b. he has seen my true colours from the baby pink to the virgin black...(in other words they know me too well..so no kick la)
c. each and everyone of them have their special 'thatthingyoudoorhavethatcanmakeme drool" thing...the list might help you a little..but it's strictly according to alphabetical order nothing else..

Ady - the pornKING..just enough of lust in him to bring the animal out in me..muahahhahhahha

Amin - the blurONE..one of my closest bud..he's caring and definitely not my type..too sotong...ehheheh

Art - the SINGER...oohhhh..love it when he croons...perhaps he could sing me a lullaby...

Curly - the matCOOL...a lil' bit of cute plus cool..love the way he carry himself..the way he hides his insecurity is a plus point...

Dinur - the SNAG of them all...a bit of romance and sensitivity won't hurt right?hahha

Dzool- mr PERSONALITY..weird taste in clothing...humourous..mood swinger...enough to rock my world..hahhha

Isa - the HUNK..even though he hardly has a butt..but hey looks rule it all..look at that charming smile..enough to melt a girl..ahhhh..prince charming?nah~

Shark - the matMOTOR...enough said~

so you see...they are all part of my ideal type of MAN...and besides...THEY ARE TAKEN...

i'll shall say a lil' prayer for u

dark skies...
heavy rain...
haiz....
all of these to remind us of the loss we've acquired..
a great man has left us...
it's a pity that a good man like him have a shorter life span than the rest of us...
most would say God loves him more...
true, very true indeed...
now girl, don't dissappoint your dad..grow up, take responsibilities..be a role model..it's all up to you now...
if i am you, i'll do all that...
cos i wished he was my own...

writings on my goddamn walls

i've decided to blog again...
after 2mths of non-stop actions...
it's miserable not able to talk to anyone about how i feel and think about things..
people kept getting the wrong ideas..

sheeshh!!!

so the best way is to put in words...i WON'T care who read it..i WON'T care if others have things to say about it...in simple terms..

[NOT HAPPY DON'T READ]

simple...

i've never felt so alone right now...it's downright depressing...so many things mashed-up in my head...like whip potato...

it's wrong isn't it..being this way..pretending it's okay when it's absolutely not..
i don't do the same things i say...fickle minded..yes?can't help..i don't want to hurt or be hurt in any process..sick of it...so so so sick of it...

so i guess the best way to just say what i have to say...and when something else happen..try doing something else...isn't it natural for us humans to do so??or is it just me??trying to be manipulative??

you be the judge..like always..

seriously...in the end i'm the one suffering..i lost both..well let's face it...both reminded me of the other...i know once it's done..it's done..there's nothing that can turn it around...

it's my misfortune to be the one stuck in the middle...if only..if only..haiz...

i don't know what to say or do to...my hearts is torn in two...i can't decide...i just need time..lots of it...just let me be for now..just let it be...

a lil' bit of truth

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

courtesy of http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

it just ain't good enough

i don't know why i feel what i'm feeling right...downright disappointed or fucking pissed...i can't decided..because it felt neither of those two...could it be PMS..perhaps..or maybe it's just me..

the feeling of being out of place is something i hate having...it doesn't help when i'm the kind that loves to talk and joke around..i find it hard to accept..i hate myself...

i'm really stressed out..tomorrow's THE big day...and i've got nothing..worse still i'm feeling this way...wished i could be fake and just smile my way through...

i'm tear-ing...i can't help it...i'm sorry...