writings on my goddamn walls

i've decided to blog again...
after 2mths of non-stop actions...
it's miserable not able to talk to anyone about how i feel and think about things..
people kept getting the wrong ideas..

sheeshh!!!

so the best way is to put in words...i WON'T care who read it..i WON'T care if others have things to say about it...in simple terms..

[NOT HAPPY DON'T READ]

simple...

i've never felt so alone right now...it's downright depressing...so many things mashed-up in my head...like whip potato...

it's wrong isn't it..being this way..pretending it's okay when it's absolutely not..
i don't do the same things i say...fickle minded..yes?can't help..i don't want to hurt or be hurt in any process..sick of it...so so so sick of it...

so i guess the best way to just say what i have to say...and when something else happen..try doing something else...isn't it natural for us humans to do so??or is it just me??trying to be manipulative??

you be the judge..like always..

seriously...in the end i'm the one suffering..i lost both..well let's face it...both reminded me of the other...i know once it's done..it's done..there's nothing that can turn it around...

it's my misfortune to be the one stuck in the middle...if only..if only..haiz...

i don't know what to say or do to...my hearts is torn in two...i can't decide...i just need time..lots of it...just let me be for now..just let it be...