a lil' bit of truth

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

courtesy of http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

it just ain't good enough

i don't know why i feel what i'm feeling right...downright disappointed or fucking pissed...i can't decided..because it felt neither of those two...could it be PMS..perhaps..or maybe it's just me..

the feeling of being out of place is something i hate having...it doesn't help when i'm the kind that loves to talk and joke around..i find it hard to accept..i hate myself...

i'm really stressed out..tomorrow's THE big day...and i've got nothing..worse still i'm feeling this way...wished i could be fake and just smile my way through...

i'm tear-ing...i can't help it...i'm sorry...

can you hear me?

i'm missing you...really am...wished you could be here once again...to assure/comfort/love me like you've always do...but i know it's impossible...you could never return to my side...you're gone forever...

*sobs*

still going...

the 1st time i set eyes on you...
i almost died of shock...
beyond the cute somewhat sexy voice..
stood a little boy with a cap on...
bah~ what luck...
after all the wooing and date-less days..
we're an item..
i don't know what i see in you...
unromantic..
short..
dark..
playful..
cheeky..
not serious..
unsocialable..
and definitely not my ideal guy...
but..
after all these years..
after all the troubled and memorable times..
after all the comparing of exs and admirers..
after all the misunderstandings and petty arguments we've gotten into..
i've fallen...
fallen into a deep trance i can never get out of...
is this what they called love..
no?
am i dillusional??
don't think so..
i've fallen for this midget..
whom i called B...
he's the one who almost cause me cardiac arrest when he went cycled home from bugis alone on his bicycle...
he's the one who see me for who i am not what i am...
never looking back at my past...
he's the one who loved me and accepted me....
he's the one who taught the many lessons in live..
to appreciate the ones who's dear to me..
and steer me away from all negativity a teenager would have...
he's my other half..
never will my life be complete without him...
i love you..
and this time it's for real..

it's been twenty-six months and four day...

*blows nose and wipes tears*

different??in what way??

does dressing differently than usual mean you've changed?no?
heh~ so what's the fuss about??
i've no idea..

decided to blog..well just felt like putting something into this empty hole..
(so what! noone's reading it..bah~)

had a bad start to the day..woke up late..thought my class was of a later timing...
rush rush rush rush... rushes to bathe..rushes to iron my clothes..rushes to comb my hair..rushes to put on my lenses..ok stop!basically it was a hectic morning...

after all that "rushing"...i was yet again held back at the train station...middle fingers shown..after all the swearing and cursing...i'm back on track...

cruising in the train..sha na na na...heh~
learnt that blood shot eyes and brown coloured lenses so do not go...

lean back in my seat..cross my feet and hey presto..i'm in lala-land..
how i wished i could travel in comfort...

so honey..when are you getting a bike/car??