a GReaT DaY..

another great day 4 me...
alhamdulillah~ things are finally turning out betta these days...
im thankful 2 God..4 all e happiness ive received...
e blessings n 4 giving me Life...
i nvr knew Life is beautiful...
i used 2 hate living..i hated my mom 4 e naggings...
hated my dad 4 e beatings..
hated my sis 4 being e apple in my parents' eyes...
hated e pple ard me...teachers..classmates...i hated everithing...
negativity had always been a part of me...
i used 2 take things 4 granted...
i was so naive back den...
4 every bad episode tat happened..
i point e finger at others...
blaming dem 4 e misfortunes...
haiz...
it took me...17yrs...17 bloody yrs...
2 realised e beauty tat surrounds me..
i wasted 17yrs...instead of being thankful for being alive..
i was consumed by anger n hatred...
now im different...
im changing from an ugly midget into a beautiful firefly...
i wan 2 spread my light of happiness far n wide...
n tis is all because of U...
B..e day u came into my life...
i began 2 see things from a different view...
u lifted me out of e deep black hole...
e gaf me strength 2 face my fears....
in e past...we haf 2 go thru daily conflicts..
misunderstandings n lots of voice-raising...
2 get 2 where we are today...
im so thankful tat thru out e rough patch..
i haf my friends 2 count on to...u noe hu u r...
i lurve u guys...thank u 4 everithing...
e hang outs...e talks...e hugs...
i can nvr repay dem...
2 Mak...Bapak..Kakak...
even though u 3 wun be able 2 read tis...
i wud jus like 2 express my gratitude 2 u 3...
im sorry 4 all e bad things ive done...
sorry 4 all e tears u shed...e worries...
im sorry...i realise e value of family...
how deep e love runs in my veins..
even though we dun express dem...
2 all whus reading...
value ur love ones...especially ur family...
b4 u lose dem 4 eternity...
show dem ur care n concern...most importantly respect...
im saying tis 2 show tat im a perfect filial daughter...
im not perfect..noone will ever b...
but im trying...

Bestfriend?

do u happen 2 haf a bestfriend??
if u do..i suggest u not 2 continue reading...
ehhehe..yaLa..dun wan 2 offend anione...
:) if u dun mind..carry on reading...hehhehe

Bestfriends...ermm...
who are dey??
friends who haf been der 4 u..
thru ups n downs...
always hang out together..
share e most darkest secrets 2gether..
ermm..if tats e definition of Bestfriends...
den i tink i got lots of dem...
my friends been der 4 me wen i nid dem e most...
n i can always count on dem if i haf a prob...
even if not always...i appreciate wat dey haf done 4 me..
so wat exactly is a Bestfriend?
sumtimes i envy those people who haf one...
sum of e people i noe..haf more den 1..
wow!!damn...im green wit envy...
i nvr had 1...
oh wait..well...even if i treat e other person a bestfriend..
she/he doesnt seem 2 do e same...
haiz..once i had a "bestfriend" in pri sch..
we got 2 noe each other in pri1 1st day of sch...
we happen 2 live in e same blk..so we took e same sch bus 2 sch..
at 1st ackward arh...but after sumtime...
i spend most of my weekend afternoons der...
n i tot 2 myself...wow!i haf a bestfriend...
it wen on 4 a few mths...
we were so close...even during recess time we wan 2 eat 2gether..
wit our "buddies" in tow..hehehhe... so much fun...we nvr arguement...
den one unfortunate day...wen my sister came 2 fetch me from sch...
she told me wat she overheard wat my "bestfriend" said 2 her mom...
"Mama...si Zalina 2 mulu dia bising seh...dia blah blah blah"...
sheeshhh!!!wat e hell...i tot she was my "bestfriend"...
kepantat btol...*sorry Nut pinjam jap ehh*
but e funni thing is..e next she acted as if nothing happen..
sheeshh...wat e hell..
tat was my 1st experience of mistakenly tot i haf a "bestfriend"...
e 2nd happen in sec sch...
sec1..wow...im was like..wow..
hehehe da besarla konon...
khrekhkre...i look ard my new classrm..
wow..hehhe okok...
at 1st okay...i made alot of frens...both guys n gerls...
den i becam really attached a grp of gerls...
attached in a healthy wayla...im still sane..
we hang out together...su m of us haf e same CCA...
n 1 happen 2 be my sister's bestfriend lil sister...
but most of all..i was real close 2 one particular gerl...
we were like sisters...i hang out at her place so often...
i practically noe her whole family..
treated hers like mine...i was so happy..
in my frens diary...*remember e BIODATAs-written diarys...
yeap..i even wrote her as my bestfriend...
wow!!...den sec2 came...
she became a prefect..n i dun...
so we stop hanging out tat often...
den she got 2 noe another gerl...n dey are like close...
i was like..okay...a bit sad arh...coz i dun haf her all 2 myself..
*once again...im not gay or anithing....*
i tot e three of us will be great together..
hang out 2gether n stuffs...wow..another bestfriend...
we bought e same design tshirts...yes all 3 of us..wahhah
wen out 2gether...den i realised...
everytime e three of us g out 2gether...
i always ended up at e back...both of dem will be laughing 2gether in front..
while i tag along...keeping 2 myself...
den...lil by lil...we grew apart...
i wept...wept e lost of a gd friend....
i was so sad...i tot i haf tat 1 fren...a Bestfriend...
but i was wrong...even though we still talk n stuffs..
its jus friends..jus normal friends...
haiz...since den i dun haf ani bestfriends...
i try not to...now i treat all my friends equally...
dey are all my friends..it doesnt realli matter...
coz i love each n everyone of dem...
tak kirala...bdk pri ke, sec ke poly ker..
:) i lurve u guys..n im thankful to haf u guys in my life...
thank u....muacks...
cheers 2 Friendship!!!

HaPPy uR HeRe...

ellu...
still awake...waiting 4 my mum n sis..
hehhe wats up..
its been a long week...
haiz...cant wait 2 end all my exams...
im so tired...
made sum progress 2day...
im done wit safety notes...
jus haf 2 analyse dems everyday..
jus 2 make sure i get all of dem in my head...
decided 2 jus cap my studying 2 jus 55% of e whole paper..
haiz...im not tat gd in memorising..
so i guess..if i can at least pass e paper..
its gd enuf..
4 me at least...
errmmm wat can i say...
met B 2day..
yes..again..hahha
how great...
been meeting him almost everyday..
ehhehhe so happy...
:) miss e rest...
amcam korang???how ur studying coming along?
haiz...so so happy...
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

i LuRVe u STiLL...

yawnz..
had a great day 2day..
wen 4 for NA exam in e morning...
met Isa along e way...
alhamdulillah~..manage 2 answer most of e question..
hopefully i pass...
meet my B in e afternoon..
accompanied B 2 SIR building 2 extend his passport...
den we wen 2 Concourse Shopping Mall...
2 study at BK...e place was deserted...sheeshh
but fun!!miss e gd ol' days wit e St. Johnians...
ermmm...i feel so happy...
ive been meeting B almost everyday...
haiz...i can nvr be happier den now...
wish we cud do tis all e time...
jus walking hand in hand..
laughing n joking...
tucking all our problems at e back of our heads..
ahhh....i feel so ALIVE....
rejuvenated sumhow...jus having u next 2 me...
jus looking at ur angelic face...
waaaaaiiit a min....
ANGELIC??errr...nvm...
i jus love u...love u so much...
:) n im glad..we haf finally cleared e bad air..
let hope we will b able 2 handle situations like these better...
if ders a nid..hopefully not....
i cant bear 2 argue wit u again...
muaiicckkss..lurve u B...

BLooD SHoT eYeS...

yawnz...
haven sleep 4 more den 24hrs..
sheeshh...
my body aches...
my eyes hurt...
but i jus refuses 2 sleep..
i wan 2 test how far i can withstand tis tiredness..
i donnoe if i wan 2 go tuition 2moro...
so tired..im a total shag...
clinically i tink my brain's dead...
hahahaha...
shhhessshh..
i badly nid 2 sleep....
i tink...
argghh!!!