DISAPPEAR

how i wish the earth will just open up and swallow me right now...i feel shitty..i don't understand it..i really don't...
is it due to my poor english that you can't seem to understand what i wish to put across??
i really am at a lost now...nothing seems to go right...even if it did..it won't last even a day..am i that bad at expressing what i actually feel(think)??
i really feel stoopid..i can't even express my feelings right...fuck shit...
my debarrment letter is already on the way...that's enough to make my head spin...and this have to happen...arghhhh...
*banged head on wall*
i feel sick all of a sudden...now i lost my desire to study....fuck shit...if given a choice now..i wish to digging a deep trench and bury myself in it...