hey...i juz to talk to sum1...how r u?..im sorry 4 not updating u 4 a while...im sorry...im juz depress rite now... nothings goin rite...my lifes a mess... i dont noe...i mean...i haf tis freaking temper of mine...i mean...i used to be able to control it...but now it seems i cant nomore...mayb coz i bottled my feelings to long? or i juz cant stand being treated in a certain way...noeing certain things...i donnoe...i cant help feeling kranky...i shun crowds...even my own frends...i dont seem to laugh or smile nomore...it seems hard to do so...i mean...i donnoe...i wan to shut myself from everything everyone...im sarcastic even in normal conversations....i spit angry words at people for no apparent reason...i juz wan to cry...tats all i've been doing....2004 doesnt seem brand new...juz wished itll end soon...i dont wanna go to school...i hate people looking at me...im fat...big breasts!!i hate it...i dun wan da attention...i juz wanna be me...da old me tat geeky lil girl..tat noone took notice of...im juz plain dirt...i like it tat way...but my lifes ruin...it didnt go as my mommy n daddy plans it to b...i hate thinking bout...but i cant help it...everynite i lay in bed thinking about all this...asking where im going...wheres all this gonna lead me...i suck at everything...i cant score a pathetic B for my moduels...im hopeless...im surrounded wit clever beautiful people...i tried to get into the crowd...but i cant...im pretending...haiz...i donnoe bloggie...does ur life suck like mine?haf u ever wonder?