my heart aches so much right now....
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Look At Me Now
my wrist is aching..my chest is hurting..my nose is runny...sheeshhh...getting so sick these days...aiyooo~ my wrist really aches..damnit..going to ask nut to massage it..i need to work this friday and saturday...arghh!!!this is frustrating!!!
went to chill with isa and amin yesterday at starbucks northpoint...hahha unlikely group of people to actually sit down and chill...cool~
i felt at "peace"...whatever's in my head been stuffed somewhere in my head, far away...i think i should do more of this...chilling out with friends...just to keep my mind of it.... it's killing me...
went to chill with isa and amin yesterday at starbucks northpoint...hahha unlikely group of people to actually sit down and chill...cool~
i felt at "peace"...whatever's in my head been stuffed somewhere in my head, far away...i think i should do more of this...chilling out with friends...just to keep my mind of it.... it's killing me...
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Monday, December 20, 2004
My FOUL Mood
i am sooo PISSED today...today is the worse day of the week...damnit!!!1stly i have to bear seeing that fucking asshole..next thing i have my stoopid lecturer won't want to see me to discuss my FYP...what the hell..he made me wait 2solid hours just to tell me he needed the 3 of us there...what the hell???!!!
why didn't he say it earlier...haiz...that really did it..i cried like nobody's business at blk37..feeling angry and disgusted...and to add to the bloody copy-cat incident..wah liao!!!my blood boils!!!
damnit...if only i could say it straight at his face...let him know how freaking angry i am now...damnit!!!damnit!!!
why the foul mood??...i don't know...i think i miss him too much....
saw him just now...he look so near and yet it felt so far...haiz..i really feel like running up to him and give him a squeeze...and tell him how much i love him....how i cherish him...but i know i can't..i have to be strong...i have to be patient...he'll come back...i know he will...
sometimes when i think about it...i feel a tinge of regret...kept thinking of the possible ways that i could have done to save it all... if only i could turn back time...* wipe tears*
frankly...i really need a hug right now...i really need to cry out loud...i really need to mourn...
why didn't he say it earlier...haiz...that really did it..i cried like nobody's business at blk37..feeling angry and disgusted...and to add to the bloody copy-cat incident..wah liao!!!my blood boils!!!
damnit...if only i could say it straight at his face...let him know how freaking angry i am now...damnit!!!damnit!!!
why the foul mood??...i don't know...i think i miss him too much....
saw him just now...he look so near and yet it felt so far...haiz..i really feel like running up to him and give him a squeeze...and tell him how much i love him....how i cherish him...but i know i can't..i have to be strong...i have to be patient...he'll come back...i know he will...
sometimes when i think about it...i feel a tinge of regret...kept thinking of the possible ways that i could have done to save it all... if only i could turn back time...* wipe tears*
frankly...i really need a hug right now...i really need to cry out loud...i really need to mourn...
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WARNING for the bloody COPY-CAT
hey you!!yea i mean you...
i think it's about time you find your own identity and STOP copying others!!
to be more specific..HIM...
you bloody COPY-CAT!!! idiotic male-bimbo!!!
even though you may think that he may not mind...i mind!!!
even if you don't respect the wearer..
RESPECT ME!!!
i went to great length to actually get that for him...
it's something really special..something that i only want him to have...
and you just have to ruin that don't you..
for effing sake why man???just freaking why??
are you thatFUCKING STOOPID that you just have to follow whatever others wear??
even if you actually like the thing can't you find something less similar...
fuck you..and i really mean it..you dumbass!!
can't your tiny brain(ohh wait i don't you even have a brain) actually realised i actually wanted it to be speacial..now thanks to your "smart thinking" it doesn't seem to be special anymore..it's something common..and soon..there will be more copy-cats like you around..just great...
more look a like wannabes in campus...just GREAT!!!
i feel disgusted looking at you...you are such a COPY-CAT!!!
I HATE YOU..i swear i do!!!
*makes disgusted face and walks off*
i think it's about time you find your own identity and STOP copying others!!
to be more specific..HIM...
you bloody COPY-CAT!!! idiotic male-bimbo!!!
even though you may think that he may not mind...i mind!!!
even if you don't respect the wearer..
RESPECT ME!!!
i went to great length to actually get that for him...
it's something really special..something that i only want him to have...
and you just have to ruin that don't you..
for effing sake why man???just freaking why??
are you that
even if you actually like the thing can't you find something less similar...
can't your tiny brain(ohh wait i don't you even have a brain) actually realised i actually wanted it to be speacial..now thanks to your "smart thinking" it doesn't seem to be special anymore..it's something common..and soon..there will be more copy-cats like you around..just great...
more look a like wannabes in campus...just GREAT!!!
i feel disgusted looking at you...you are such a COPY-CAT!!!
I HATE YOU..i swear i do!!!
*makes disgusted face and walks off*