sometimes i wished i could just hate you!

i am really fed-up with you...
if i really am that fucked-up...
i wont even bother addressing you...
you never change...
never stop comparing...
never stop insulting...
why cant you see that I AM NOT HER!!!
and I DONT NEVER WANT TO BE HER!!!
not because i cant..
its because i dont have the desire to...
because i will be just putting up an act...
and not be myself..
FUCK!!
i wish i could really be as fucked-up as you described...
then it might just make my life easier...
so i cant get out of this goddamn house!
away from you..
given a choice..
you dont have to chase me out..
im willing to get out myself...
how i wish i could show you your shortcomings...
how i wish...


//slit the throat and bury alive