worse day of 2004....

terribly depressed..
confused..
all cried out..

i cant believe it happen...i realli cant...all those hopes..shattered...
in matter of seconds..
i cant explain in words how i feel...i feel terrible...
maybe its my fault things turned out tis way...haiz...
i donnoe...im so so sad...i wish i cud cry...but i cant...
my eyes hurt...my heart aches...
i admit im wrong...but does it haf to end it tis way...??i wonder..
if only i didnt do it...will tis relationship be saved?
ive done alot of thinking...maybe its for e better...
maybe He haf something else 4 me...im sure ders a reason 4 all tis to happen..
haiz..even though it still hurts me...i will try to behave as per normal to e people ard me...
no used brooding over spilled milk...even though it will take a long time to come to terms wit
all tis...haiz...even though things r not e way dey used to be...my feeling n oppinion wil
not change...i will still love him as much as b4...
to all those lovers out der..nvr stop loving one another...n to those who think dat love is a waste of time..
think again...try getting one..u will feel e ups n downs of having a significant other...
tats all 4 now...wish me luck 4 tomoros' papers...i donnoe if i can make it...
tata~

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