right smack in between

damn it...
i'm back where i started...
i have to do something about it...
it's bothering e like hell..
it bugged me so much that it kept me thinking..
should i change my mind or should i not...
it's not fair is it?
i think i know what to do...
i think so...haiz...

my hatred for you will never ceased

seriously..i hate you..
you are freeaking a pain in the ass..
always thinking you are right just because you're so called "THE MAN OF THE HOUSE"..
come on la..
don't expect others to respect you when you're behaving this way..
come on..
i don't know what she sees in you..
you have no responsibilty, you're a self-centered asshole..
let see how long you're going to live in comfort..
i will make sure you pay..

e other side of me

woke up today feeling depressed..
perhaps it's due to the fact i delibrately hurt someone..
and i certain know how one feels..
is it wrong for me to decide my course in life i wished to embark?
to set my own rules after so many years of abiding to others?
is it so wrong?
why is it that other's never want to respect my decision?
when all these while i always did respect yours..
hearing your every excuses to do things that hurt me delibrately..
and supposedly understand why you're acting this way and that..
accepting you the way it is all the time..
and you not wanting to do the same..
hear me out for once..
understand me..please..
i plead with you..

why i can't fall for a pantat

don't ask me why i putting this up...
just something i would like to share with you guys..
by the way pantat in this term is not referring to my/yours/anybody's ass..
just a reminder...

okay the main reason why i can't fall for a pantat is because
a. he is my close friend/my friend's boyfriend/just not my type..
b. he has seen my true colours from the baby pink to the virgin black...(in other words they know me too well..so no kick la)
c. each and everyone of them have their special 'thatthingyoudoorhavethatcanmakeme drool" thing...the list might help you a little..but it's strictly according to alphabetical order nothing else..

Ady - the pornKING..just enough of lust in him to bring the animal out in me..muahahhahhahha

Amin - the blurONE..one of my closest bud..he's caring and definitely not my type..too sotong...ehheheh

Art - the SINGER...oohhhh..love it when he croons...perhaps he could sing me a lullaby...

Curly - the matCOOL...a lil' bit of cute plus cool..love the way he carry himself..the way he hides his insecurity is a plus point...

Dinur - the SNAG of them all...a bit of romance and sensitivity won't hurt right?hahha

Dzool- mr PERSONALITY..weird taste in clothing...humourous..mood swinger...enough to rock my world..hahhha

Isa - the HUNK..even though he hardly has a butt..but hey looks rule it all..look at that charming smile..enough to melt a girl..ahhhh..prince charming?nah~

Shark - the matMOTOR...enough said~

so you see...they are all part of my ideal type of MAN...and besides...THEY ARE TAKEN...

i'll shall say a lil' prayer for u

dark skies...
heavy rain...
haiz....
all of these to remind us of the loss we've acquired..
a great man has left us...
it's a pity that a good man like him have a shorter life span than the rest of us...
most would say God loves him more...
true, very true indeed...
now girl, don't dissappoint your dad..grow up, take responsibilities..be a role model..it's all up to you now...
if i am you, i'll do all that...
cos i wished he was my own...