I'm NOT stupid

wished i could have said that to you...why do people always look down on me or the things i do...just effing why??you may not realised that simple sentence have hurt me so deep...i feel depressed...am i stupid??or maybe i'm wasting my time doing what i'm doing...
perhaps..i am afterall...
stupid enough to listen to your words...
to allow it to consume me...
to allow these tears to flow once again...
i'm stupid...stupid stupid stupid....

Truth Hurts

switching off my phone..trying to sleeping during the long ride to work...having difficulties..didn't expect that from you...it hurts like hell, i tell you...maybe it's just you..or maybe i'm just being nice....i don't know...
being submissive have been my nature..especially to those i care and trust..but i can't help notice there are some who take advantage of it...and yes..i can easily said no..but i just can't..it's hard..and again i remind it..its been my nature...
i wish i could be like others..selfish...
maybe i should start learning to be....

People Change, I Guess

*shocked*
didn't expect to hear what i've heard...i'm really sorry dear...if talking to me wasn't much of a help...perhaps..i should just stick to just talking huh??
nonetheless i felt a sense of lost too...a person whom i've always regarded as a friend turned out to be no less than a perfect stranger...
it's hurt just knowing that..really it does..it might not seem like a big deal to you but it is to me...people change i guess..all the best to whatever you're doing nowfuture...
let's just hope we don't see each other around..
cos i really don't know what to say to you.....

you made me go all teary

aaaauuuuwwww....love you so much...
here's a tale only my syawal a.k.a B can do...
cycling to arab street in the wee hours of the morning all the way from yishun...
yes..C.Y.C.L.Y.I.N.G...hahaha sounded fairytale-like but it happened...
really didn't expect him to do just that...*frankly i've been wanting this to happen..*
ha ha ha...
love you honey...muacksssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Holiday

finally i am done with the semester's module..hopefully i need not have to retake any of them next semester....it's so sucky having to retake the same module again..like what the mats and minahs would see mendak siol...
heh~didn't go sentosa for my long awaited vacation...*sigh* had a blardy stoopid meeting at the cafe...then i have to spend the whole night re-doing my project management coursework...and submit it in the wee hours of monday morning...aiyoo..but thankfully my dear syawal was going to school so..heh~passing of the baton...hey i was shagged..didn't have the energy to drag my weary body all the way to clementi road just to submit my assignment..hmm..not worth it~hahha :P
you might be wondering why i'm blogging away today..hehhe i'm school for you info..and if you're wondering why am i doing in school during the holidays..well i'm doing my final year project...and that only means 1 thing..i have to drag my sorry ass to school everyday for the next 5weeks..gosh!!!but yeah!!it's better to be going to school and stuck at home doing absolutely nothing..
this is the saddest holiday i ever had...